I know there are lots of things about this subject on the internet yet this continues on. So if this even just helps one person stop this, it will have made it all my worth while. I cannot stress enough how people don’t really realize what they may cause with things that they say. First of all it all comes down to judging each other. Just because someone dressed different then you or listens to different music then you does not make it okay for you to mistreat and bully them. Honestly all throughout the 18 years of my life, I have never had bad bullying…I think a lot had to do with how I dealt with it. I’m sharing my story to bring awareness. So when I got into middle school I dressed in all black, black eye liner, skin tight skinny jeans, favorite band was AFI. I was labeled “emo” and some people that I assume thought were better then us “emo” kids would shout “emo!” in the hallways…and me I would pretent I didn’t hear it and would continue to just talk to the person i was walking with. so they just felt stupid and eventually just stopped. Little did they know that i was depressed and my dad at home just got diagnosed with a terrible illness that is incurable, and i came from a dysfunctional family just to name a few of my issues. But, I never let it bug me or get to me. I think if you’re being bullied that is the best way to deal with it because then the person thats bullying you feels stupid that they aren’t affecting you and eventually stop on their own. but too many times i am seeing teens and preteens end their own life because of things people say to them and they begin to believe. I think ultimately it comes down to judging, stop judging people and better yet ask then why they are the way they are. you dont know what their past was like or how it was for them growing up at home? we all have issues and deal with them in different ways. this place would be a lot better place with more peace and love if we all just tried to get to know each other for once, and actually took the time so care about each other, we all have feelings. Us as humans, need love. Without love, there is no life. I can go on and on about this subject but just Think about that next time you catch yourself beginning to judge someone or call someone out over the internet….would you really be able to sleep at night knowing that jane/john doe cut themselves tonight because you called them “gay” etc, or that maybe it was the last straw and you contributed to their suicide?
how fucking happy i am right now <3 he called today, everything will be okay now ^_^
So the wedding went quite well. I woke up like at 10am to dye my bottom half of my hair red with manic panic vampire red, as i straightened my sisters hair. Then i went into the shower and then got dressed and did my make-up and hair. We finally left like at 4pm since it started at 5pm. The wedding ended up starting later. I lit up the candles, and then the wedding began. It all happened pretty quick, then it was time to eat. My aunt and uncle had a mini bar in the bac of their car since we couldn’t have alcohol inside because Jackies dad is an alcoholic, but that plan went out the window because he got to the wedding already drunk and was drinking beer outside that he had taken haha. He was saying a lot of funny things. Then i kept going outside and back in to dance, with my cousins. The food was pretty good, dancing was so fun with all of the lights. I had a really great time, then we went to the after party at my cousins so i went with my aunt patty, the ride there was nice. then we got there and i changed my clothes. it was funny two of my cousins cousins were trying to hit on me. We finally came home like at 3am. Then the day after the wedding i woke up the next day like at 2pm. ever since then my sleep schedule got distorted but its been fun. last night i stayed up late working on my first mix using garage band, inspired by my friend caleb. i liked it for being my first mix, someone already wanted to colab after it was up for like 20 min. Im staying up tonight again maybe to make another mix.
Today I went to My cousins house then we went to go eat at winchells and then went to LA to shop for wedding decorations and clothes we needed. I bought a strapless bra for me dress and got free panties for liking their page on fb. Then we went back to my aunts shop and made candies, the flowers, had to go to big lots. then finally got to eat pizza! then we practiced the dance and walking down the aisle. Although a lot of drama went down I had a great day with my cousins ^.^ a Lot more happened but I’m way too tired to write hehe xP
Today I hung out with my friend Eric, it was awesome. We had quite the adventure, and wow I can’t believe its already been like 10 years since i’ve known him! Well im tired, so i dont have much else to say :P
I pretty much sat around all day on my laptop and applied for jobs and stuff. Then came upstairs and took prisci a bath and and cuddled with her and my blankets since it was extremely cold. Then I began to text everyone on my contacts to see how everyone was doing, it felt good. Then I went back down stairs on my laptop and took an assessment for a teller position at chase and talked to my best friend which I’m worried about, but i get to see her tomorrow finally so I’m happy ^.^
I know i havent been updating much lately but i just had one of the best weekends ever that i am still trying to recuperate from hehe ;3 I shall be updating better, soon.
Today I had 3 hours of sleep and that is all and I went to work and Karla and shy boy went to do the b2b. It was really hot but working with Karla is always fun c: Then we went to karlas house and looked for more jobs to apply at and her mom talked to us about jobs at sea world. That would e awesome to work there. Then Karla and I went to uptown again and met ip with her friend and his friend, we talked a bit at Starbucks before we had to go. Today was fun, meeting new people is always fun :)
So I know I haven’t posted on here in a while but If your subscribed to my YouTube channel you would see I have been posting there everyday that I don’t post here. That being said, today was a pretty regular day except for the argument my sister and I had. All I have to say is that long story short it was about her feeling bad that we aren’t as close as we used to and blamed me for it. What she has to realize is that she got married, and I was no longer her priority. And I accepted it, so I moved on. She thinks she can get married and expect us to remain close best friends like we used to? It can’t, especially when she doesn’t wanna hang out or do anything with me if he doesn’t tag along. I’m sorry to break it to you but if you have a close sibling and you get married, the relationship you had with your sibling(s) will change. They will never be the same. How close you would like to be with them depends on you, how much time are you willing to spend alone with your sibling? Your spouse doesn’t have to be with you 24/7 anyways. They need their space too. It’s not even that I’m jealous, I accepted that I lost my sister as a best friend and especially when she told every single intimate secret I ever told her to my mom. Yeah I probably will never open up to her again, and yes I will remain angry with her about that for a while. But just stop blaming ME about your complaint of our relationship right now okay? I’ve accepted it now you accept it and move on okay? I’m sorry I just hate when she brings this up and puts all the blame on me. But oh well, I will do my part and try to be nicer. That’s a bit of a piece of my mind today so, goodnight.
